2 years ago today.

I never looked forward to Chloe's date of birth before she was born. Her due date was the second week of January, 2008, so October 9, 2007 meant N-o-t-h-i-n-g to me. Not a thing. Until that day came. After that day, there were months of blurry days and nights. Medicines and doctors. Nurses and nonsense (no offense to the nurses - we love you dearly. Except for the one that smelled like cigarettes and Italian dressing. Nasty). Oh, and the one that called a baby a little sh*t because his veins kept collapsing, but I digress...

JANUARY 19, 2008. That was a scary day. One of Chloe's completely awesome primary nurses, Nicole, had written out Chloe's schedule - and how to care for her. It's hard to leave the hospital after you've been there watching others take care of your child daily, for MONTHS. You get to know them, you get to know your baby through them.

Alimentum 26 cal. -- Xopenex 2 puffs, 3 a.m. 9 a.m. 3 p.m. 9 p.m.--Flovent 2 puffs, 9 a.m. 9 p.m. -- Aldactazide 2.6 m. 9 a.m. 9 p.m. -- Polyvisol 9 a.m. 9 p.m. -- Actigall 9a.m. 9 p.m. -- Reglan 3 a.m. 9 a.m. 3 p.m. 9 p.m. Axid 9 a.m. 9 p.m.

And then there were the monitors. The oxygen and the apnea. The chronic lung disease. The risk for RSV and the rickets. The follow up appointments. The unknown future.

So now it was up to me to do it. All of it. As scary as this day was - and as much as I was afraid to bring her home and start the care all on my own - it was one of the happiest days of my life.

Because she MADE IT HOME.

It has been 2 years. Two long and short years. Today, you would NEVER know that she started out as such a sick little girl.

She will always be my sweet little baby :)