I think I've become...

Bridezilla.

I'm on dress number two (2)... after my seamstress told me that I had very "negative energy" just as I walked into her office (who am I kidding, her home) for my final fitting. She said I needed to go home and "think about it" and come back. Little did she know, that was my final straw. I didn't call her back and the following day I purchased a WHOLE NEW DRESS.

Crazy? Maybe. Feeling better about it? Very much.

You picture this day to be a very calm, stress free day. Like a day full of happiness and wonder. At least that's what you see on TV. (It's not what you see in the divorce paperwork I draft years later when things have gone awry...but I digress). Needless to say, my day is not coming together as I had hoped, which is my own fault. I'm not an awesome party planner - at all. When Maya had a birthday party last year I enlisted Velda to help. She came over with chocolate fountain and frappe recipe in hand. I didn't even know what those things were until she showed up. She is a life saver. But there are some little things that even she can't decide for me.

Me? Wait, US. It is OUR wedding after all, right??

I still need walk down the aisle music - which is unnecessary in the temple (I've heard...) It's a difficult choice since I love, love, love music - I like alternative music and Tye is maybe more traditional. We haven't been able to agree on a song. Or songs. But, we still have ten (10) days...right?!

Flower for my hair. Self explanatory. I made one, but I'm not sure if I LOVE it or not. We'll see.

Jewelry. Is this necessary? My dress is sort of bling-a-riffic as it is. Again, I still have a week, and it shouldn't be hard to find some earrings (right?)

Lolo shoes, hair junk, etc. I'm not sure why this eludes me. Should be an easy task.

Ummmmm....and that is all I can think of right now. Which is part of my problem, I don't have a master list and I can't really remember day to day what I need to accomplish. I did waste a whole saturday looking for the elusive perfect flower for my hair.... I am a terrible floral shopper.

I'm sure everyone stresses just a BIT before a wedding. I don't think my stress is 100% wedding related (however). The Monday following the Saturday I got engaged (7.30. great day) my boss laid off the other paralegal in my office making ME the only one. That basically tripled my work load (I was part time, she was full) and my work hours. I was used to taking off whenever I pleased (really) and I am now working more than I have in years... Which is not entirely a bad thing, but an extremely stressful thing. Especially when trying to take off work (which I never do) and plan (which I also never do...). I keep getting comments like "you look tired" and "wow, you must be so stressed out" which really don't help very much. Good think for Tye I'm taking most of my stress out on my beloved boss. (he'll get over it).

My WHOLE family will be coming to town. For the first time in a LONG time, they will all be here. Justin, Bree, Dais and Ems (and the respective spouses and the parents). We haven't had a family photo since there were lots of other spouses in our family (we're like a major league team and have trades every few years). It will be so great to have everyone here. I can't wait.

That just about sums it up. Thanks to you sister, my blog is partially updated. I will try to keep up on it now that things feel a little more settled down. It will be more settled when Grandma gets here and takes over the children (and laundry, and cooking).